A journey of self-discovery

I am now on holiday until 29th October!!  Yipee.

Tonight I need to unwind and get rid of work stuff out of my head... wine it is then!!

I will be off to Rome on Tuesday so must sort out my packing and possibly treat myself to some new stuff.  I can't go to Rome looking shabby after all.

I am on holidya next week, so of course I have lots to finish off before I go. Tomorrow will be a long day I think, just want to make sure everything is sorted so I can enjoy my hols.

I feel like I am the only one who is not coping with the extra work we have at the moment. Everyone else just doesn't seem to be as bothered. I let myself get stressed out because we don't have time to do things right. Perhaps this is just my perfectionist streak coming out.

I frustrate myself sometimes.

... for now anyway.

I was a bit uptight this morning watchng the clock tick round to exam time. My preparation was shockingly poor so I was expecting the worst.

The questions turned out to be OK so at least I could write something. Whether it is enough to pass it another thing.

I plan to veg out in front of the telly with a glass of wine.

Tomorrow, I will have to sign up for my next exam, boo hoo.

My exam is on Monday.

I took Thurdays and Friday off work to study.

Total hours spent revising so far: 1.5
Total hours spent napping so far: 1 (not bad!)
Total hours spent surfing so far: 5+ (research..?)
Total hours spent watching TV: 12+ (erm..)

This is not good! Blogging is now the ulimate distraction.

Why can't I motivate myself to sit down and open the bloody books. Why am I not really worried about the fact I am almost certainly going to fail this exam for the third time?

I can list a hundred or so excuses for not studying and can only list a handful of reason why I should study. I almost feel as though no matter what I do now it is too late to pass the exam so why bother? My preparation over the last few months has been almost non-existant so will two days of cramming really help? Probably not.

I am doing the exam to progress my career. I need a professional qualification to get a promotion otherwise my career is at a standstill like the rest of my life. Perhaps I need a change of career?