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  • Doing something about it..

    Shortly after my last post, I decided I would go to the shops. Why wait around after all? (As it turns out, this was the right decision as I am still waiting to hear from him!)

    I actually had a lovely afternoon. I braved Ikea and bought some stuff to get myself organised. I even stopped off at a book shop and induldged in 4 books!!

    One was a Spanish dictionary full of pictures. it was recommended by my Spanish teach so I thought it was a worth while purchase.

    Secondly I bought a travel gide for New York and on for Paris. I am off to Paris this Thursday so need to know how to get around. I've not been before and am interested to see what it's like. I have been on two holidays to France. After both, I did not gain any affection for France. I wonder if it will be the same now I am older? I am also going to New York in May. This is a trip of a lifetime and I VERY excited - hence the need to buy a book. Makes it seems more real that way.

    The fourth book I bought was 'Work Less, Acheive More' by Fergus O'Connell. I am nearly finished it already. He seems to have some very sensible ideas about time and project management that could make my life so much less of a struggle. I am actually excited about doing some of the stuff he suggests. I'll let you know in a few weeks if it actually works.

    My flat is also now reasonably tidy. I am going to do a proper clean through tomorrow. Get rid of the dust and junk I have accumulated over that 6 months.

    This weeks holiday is going to be more productive than any other.

  • Tired of waiting!!

    I am a very punctual person and as a result have spent a few hours of my life waiting for others.

    Lateness is just rude especially when you know well in advance you won't be able to meet at the agreed time.

    I have arranged to meet someone at noon today. I don't know him very well so I even confirmed it with him yesterday to be sure.

    Got a text at 10am this morning just saying "Won't be able to make 12"

    No explanation. To be honest I was pretty pissed off so my reply was a short and sweet "OK".

    Next text - "I'm driving back from Leeds"

    WTF - he could have mentioned this yesterday, I don't think a trip to Leeds is a spur of the moment thing.

    He then phoned and said he'd get here around 2pm. I am seriously thinking of telling him where to go, this is not a good start. Am I being unreasonable?

    I am now bored at home...waiting!!

  • A change of perspective..

    Something happened today that I wasn't expecting - well two things actually.

    The first was that when I woke up this morining I felt a peace with life in general. No stress, no worries, no self doubt. I felt content. This is a feeling I want to hang on to for as long as I can.

    The second is that my work friend is pregnant!! This is my first proper friend to have a baby! Very excited for her but also miffed that I will no doubt have lots of extra work to do!

    Here's hoping the positive vibes continue...

  • Tick, tick.......boom!

    I am feeling really low this week.

    I am fed up and frustrated.

    I feel like I could snap at any moment :**:

    Work is my main frustration. I have managed to end up with 4 projects that are all urgent and very important to the company. On the one hand I should be flattered that they trust me with such important stuff but I can't help feeling a bit put upon. Especailly as everything is going wrong. My boss asked me today if there was any good news - I couldn't reply.

    I feel like I'm the only one in the team with any sort of motivation to go a good job and sort things out. Everyone else bitches about how crap it all is and spends the day doing the bare minimum. This does nothing for my morale. Especially as they are technically more 'senior' than I am and get paid a hell of a lot more than me.

    Now everything has started to go wrong, I feel really incompetent. Am I really that bad at my job? I think I try too hard.

    I don't know how to sort this out. I am finding it really tough to relax and forget about it all. I feel isolated. I know I need help but I'm not sure what help I need.

    Perhaps I should get lost for a few days - fall off the face of the plant into oblivion.

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