It's been a mixed day.

My cold is a bit better.

The flat I went to see was tiny!! I would have to get rid of half my furniture. Perhaps I am not meant to move afterall. Nowhere seems to fit the bill.

I got my pay rise letter today. It was what I expected really and my manager did say it was at the higher end. Nice to know I am actually doing something right, even if it doesn't feel like it most of the time.

I am still in a bad mood. Unfortunately I only seem to be taking out on one person. The weird thing is that he has been nice to me today, but the nicer he is the more annoyed he makes me. I wish I could get him out of my system.

He reminds me of how empty and lonely my life is. I don't want my life to be like this but it is like this because of the choices I've made. It seems I have convinced myself that I am never going to be happy so there is no point in trying. Do I even know what I want out of life?